Hurts so good...Diary of a not so mad Black woman.
Monday, March 31, 2008
I heard 'em say...
Random lines and bits I've (over)heard this week.
"Nothing you do is free at 3:33 in the morning." "They're not bad, they're just not good...at all." "Love is weird." "That thing will go down faster than a Thai hooker." "A flowers greatest disappointment is not to be smelled." "I don't know what he's talking about. I have plenty of ugly friends." "Take yo muthafuckin shirt off." "Coolio Iglesias" "I want them to have your eyes, your nose, your smile and my last name."
"Hey, (name omitted) has a bullet proof vest. Think I should let him shoot me with his twenty two with it on?"
Damn man. I haven't posted anything funny or interesting in months. Thank goodness Spring is here. I think was starting to go a little crazy. Which is understandable now that I think about it. Everybody goes a little crazy when they're stuck in the house all the damn time. I've been very productive I think. The only real pleasure I take is through my assistant music director position at the station. I am surrounded by music at all times, I pick music that thousands of people take the pleasure (I hope) in listening to it all at once. I love it there. I love sharing music. Love being exposed to new sounds. Discovering new artists. Wonderful.
That being said, I feel it is my duty to share this artist. Holy shit. I've been reading up on him and listening to his music and he is hot.
I felt like writing. I'm in the weirdest place i've ever been as far as my mind set goes, but thats ok. It seems like I am forever saying goodbye in one way or another. I never really liked goodbyes...probably because I am so bad at it.
Thats not what I wanted to talk about though. I had my first nervous breakdown today. It was not fun. At all. But I lived to tell the tale. It was good to get all that stuff that was festering inside of me out, but in doing that I've opened up something else inside of me. Something I didn't really want to open...but thats ok too. I learn from everything so this is just another learning experience to me.
Random shit from my random mind. Don't mind me, I'm just here for the food.
I had to steal this pic from here because it reminded me of this this exact same piece Cyla and I saw at the High Museum a few years ago. Cyla is always making up random dialog and this is what she came up with:
"Grandma!" "What, sonny?" "Your tit!" "What?" "Your tit is out!!" "I can't hear you!"
I've been spending so much time by myself, trapped in my own thoughts, I've forgotten how to talk to people without sounding insane.
I'm playing...but I'm not.
Besides observing my rapidly decreasing skills in communication, I'm working myself to exhaustion. This Spring Break was much needed to get my mind right. I think I am at 75% right now. Much better than last week. Last week I was this close to jumping in my car and driving until I couldn't anymore. Just run away. That journey would have ended in the next county with the state of my car and the price of gas. Astronomical! Listen kids, I have three jobs and I still can't afford gas. I would laugh myself silly about that if it wasn't so serious.
lol...it is kind of funny though.
But back to the original subject. In my solitude, I've been listening to a lot of great music. Thats all I've been doing really. Last night I accidentally made the soundtrack to my life. I was listening to it while another wall in my life fell...I'm going through some things. Grown up stuff and it is an experience. But this is all happening for a reason, I think. I hope. I' seeing myself being pulled somewhere. It seems like it is out of my control and that is what scares me the most.
Damn, I keep getting off track. The music.
That goblin looking mofo in the red cap is my friend DT. 80% of the music I've been listening to has been his. Amazing stuff. I'll load up this album he did a few years ago when he gives me the ok. He was about 20 or so when he made it. That just blows my mind. Thats Dirty DeeLow next to him and me in the far back, by the way...
There is so much shit going on in my life right now...a mere blog wouldn't cover it...and I don't think the two of you who are reading this page (hi Jennifer!) would really care. So I leave you with this...
