I've been spending so much time by myself, trapped in my own thoughts, I've forgotten how to talk to people without sounding insane.
I'm playing...but I'm not.
Besides observing my rapidly decreasing skills in communication, I'm working myself to exhaustion. This Spring Break was much needed to get my mind right. I think I am at 75% right now. Much better than last week. Last week I was this close to jumping in my car and driving until I couldn't anymore. Just run away. That journey would have ended in the next county with the state of my car and the price of gas. Astronomical! Listen kids, I have three jobs and I still can't afford gas. I would laugh myself silly about that if it wasn't so serious.
lol...it is kind of funny though.
But back to the original subject. In my solitude, I've been listening to a lot of great music. Thats all I've been doing really. Last night I accidentally made the soundtrack to my life. I was listening to it while another wall in my life fell...I'm going through some things. Grown up stuff and it is an experience. But this is all happening for a reason, I think. I hope. I' seeing myself being pulled somewhere. It seems like it is out of my control and that is what scares me the most.
Damn, I keep getting off track. The music.
That goblin looking mofo in the red cap is my friend DT. 80% of the music I've been listening to has been his. Amazing stuff. I'll load up this album he did a few years ago when he gives me the ok. He was about 20 or so when he made it. That just blows my mind. Thats Dirty DeeLow next to him and me in the far back, by the way...
There is so much shit going on in my life right now...a mere blog wouldn't cover it...and I don't think the two of you who are reading this page (hi Jennifer!) would really care. So I leave you with this...
Trapped in the mountains with Cyla. Ooh scary.
posted by Jas @ 4:14 AM
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