Live a little my ass.
I have realized my entire life has been ruled by fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of failing, fear of looking dumb as fuck, fear of losing, etc, etc... So far, my fear has kept me out of a lot of trouble, but it has also kept me from getting ahead, so I don't know if it is a good or bad thing. For now, I'm going for a good thing. Fear got me 2nd place at a poker tournament last night. I was so afraid everyone had better hands than me, that I would never play a hand, and because of that, I managed to hold on to my chip stack all the way to final table where I watched everyone else knock each other out.
I know my lack of courage isn't going to get me far in life. Sometimes I wish I was as fearless as my Grandma. At her age, all she has to fear is arthritis and Alzheimers. Since neither one of those seem to be lurking around, my Grandma will do or say anything. Especially when she has a few shots of vodka. Then she isn't afraid to beat whatever boyfriend she has for talking back. Thats the kind of fearlessness I want.
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Christmas sucks. Running around on Christmas Eve trying to find any store that is open to get those last minute gifts for people who you didn't know was going to be at the Christmas party in the first plaxe is not my idea of fun. I bet you are thinking "Its not about the gifts, its about celebrating the birth of Christ and peace and joy to mankind." Yeah the fuck right. Its about presents and you know it. If it was about Christ, what the fuck does Santa have to do with
anything ? What we're really celebrating is Santa's trip from the North Pole.
But Christmas wasn't a complete bust. I got some excellent new outfits yesterday. So thanks, Santa!
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Something is wrong with the world if Ashlee Simpson is in the midst of a comeback tour.
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All I want for my birthday is a stress free day and so far, I'm not getting it.
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What is the plural word for inane? Inanities? That dosen't sound right, but I'm too tipsy off martinis to care. That is the word to describe all the little things I do everyday that dosen't do shit for me in the grand scheme of things.
For example:
"My life is filled with trivial inanities that serve to push me furthur into debt and depression."Thats dumb. Why would you want to make an adjective plural? It made sense for a minute in my alcohol hazed mind. No wonder I never make any friends when I'm drunk. Obviously I talk like an idiot when I drink. Better late than never to figure that out about yourself.
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