Hurts so good...Diary of a not so mad Black woman.
Saturday, May 20, 2023
Thursday, September 06, 2018
I forgot about this blog, I will admit. We still here, y'all. We still alive. The world is still spinning unless you're a flat earther then it's suspended in space somehow. 6 years from my last post and many things have changed while just as many things stayed the same. I'm grateful for it all despite still not knowing what the hell I'm doing. Lol. It's all good though. If I made it this far, I can make it even further. I think the biggest change in my life is my love for shoujo manga that I've developed within the last couple of years. I think that's a wonderful addition to my life, tbh. Overall, the not so angry black girl is not angry in the least. At least not today. Free smiles on deck for anyone who needs one. 😊
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Tuesday, February 14, 2012
here we are..
So, we have made it to 2012. Are you just as surprised as I am? Just kidding. I'm not surprised at all. Everybody knows the shit ain't going to hit the fan til December. I'm not kidding about that one. It may not be the end of the world but something is going to happen...or maybe it will just be the end of the world. Who knows! I'm all for the alleged "paradigm shift" but I am also not opposed to the world ending in flames..at least I won't have to worry about all these damn Bills that's been creepy on me over the years. What I really think is going to happen is a solar flare that would fuck up the Earth's magnetic field in such a way that it will wipe out all of our electricity and wireless waves. Now that will truly be an apocalypse. Did you know the original meaning of the word apocalypse is to reveal or uncover? Now its synonymous to the End of Days. All the same I suppose. It will be the end of an age. An age consists of days....Ah, but none if it really matters, does it? I still got to go to my job that I hate( but love in a all-my-bills-are-being-paid-by this-place kind of way) tonight and every other night this week. Hard to focus on the "what ifs" when the "what's now" is right in front of me. But I'm trying to stay cheerful. No one else seems to be and I always got to be the opposite of everyone else. Keeps things balanced and interesting
Anywho, its 2:22! This is always the time I tell people I love them. Something silly I do to give my minutes more meaning. Oh, Happy Valentine's Day...I just might be the only girl in a 50 mile radius with a boyfriend who truly doesn't care. I like to pick my own days to celebrate things instead of these holidays that cost so much money and have origins that is so different from what we do to celebrate them. I do love the candy though....they only come out once a year after all...I might just go out and get some...LOL..how sad I would a look! A girl buying herself candy on V Day...LOL...I'll end up on someone's blog of ridicule...maybe I won't get any candy.. .
I got off track there. I was going to say that I may make the 22 and the 29th some personal holiday. Maybe the 22 will be watch your favorite anime day...I better go ahead and ask for them off. Its not a real holiday if you go to work
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
So...its been a few months...Here is the rundown. My life is falling apart, and by falling apart I mean everything sucks, and by everything sucks I mean I am falling into a pit of despair, and by that I mean, everything is fine I am just dealing with it. lol...but really. WTF does a girl have to do to be happy and well adjusted in this damn world?
Working on it. I'll get back to you later.
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Working on it. I'll get back to you later.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
It's a New Day!
I got fired from my second job yesterday and I couldn't be happier. I cannot stop smiling, giggling and relishing in all this extra time that I have. It is most excellent. Now, I must truly get my art shit poppin', as my man would say. But its so hard to force creativity....Anyway, I thought it prudent that I share the good news. Have a drink on me. You have to pay for it though...funds are low.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
1 hour later....
I can't stop watching these animal vids.Japanese Kitty
Will someone put these two in bed?
That cat was trying to get some poor pup caught up.
The dog never gives up.
It was a long journey...
Brilliant!!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
White Conservatives Don't Like Black People
Thats right, I said it.White conservatives (namely Sean Hannity, Karl Rove, Neil Monroe and many others) are still classifying all hip hop as negative and violent. How ignorant to our culture they are. With this blow up over the White House inviting Common for a poetry reading, they are effectually and irrevocably distancing themselves from us and who we are. Not that Common is our beacon of truth and ray of light or anything like that. But if you are a hip hop lover and know that there is a diffence between that and rap, then you know that it is absolutely ridiculous to call Common a "thug" and refer to his work as anything but a realistic yet positive eye into the not so negative aspects of black culture. And they slam it as though its that other bullshit that I cannot stand. That music that paints us as the ignorant individuals they want us to be.
Read these articles and see how they slam him for a poem he read 4 years ago. They don't even try to pull out ANY of his other work for comparison. Why is that? Look him up and see for yourself. Lets just say it would not back up their remarks.
Here is an excerpt from The Daily Caller by Neil Munro:
"Here’s a sample of Common’s work, transcribed from a 2007 video with 837,613 viewers on YouTube. Students, please compare and contrast the two poems. You’ll get extra credit for counting the death threats. There is no extra credit for identifying spelling errors. By the way, ‘Uzi’ is slang for a compact machine
gun"
Actually, Mr. Monroe, the term Uzi IS not slang but the actual name of a sub machine gun named after the designer, Uziel Gal. Idiot.
And here is my contribution to those who don't know what Common is about.
And lyrics for those who can't keep up with those rappers.
Searchin for a love, throughout the ghetto
Young girls is thick, righteousness is narrow
I got my third, eye on the sparrow
Want my peoples straight and rock sweet apparrel
The mother of my child, we not together
Baby it's your back, I got forever
As the weather, talks to us
Him rockin the Holy Spirit walks through us
The blunted eyes of the youth search for a guide
A thug is a lost man in disguise
The rise and fall, of a nation, even when the buildings tumble
I still stand tall, I walk through the valley, wit a life preserver
Feelin at times, that I might just murder
Yo but that aint what I was sent for
I want folks to say his life it meant more
Than any car, any rock, or any broad
He found Geto Heaven in himself and God
Love, your happiness don't begin wit a man
Strong woman, why should you depend on a man
I understand you want a man that's resourceful
If he pay your bills, he feel like he bought you
Talkin to a friend, about what love is
Her man didn't love her, cuz he didn't love his
Hugged her from afar, said what I felt
You never find a man, till you find yourself
Time helps mistakes, you can learn from
Cuz one man fucked up men you shouldn't turn from
You want a certain type of guy, gotta reach a certain point too
At the destination, a king will annoint you
Goin through the storm, many bodies stay warm
That relationship died, for you to be born, you worth more
Than anything you could cop in a store
For you to grow he had to go so what you stoppin him for
Not even I could ignore bein alone it's hard
Find heaven in yourself and God
This music is so much bigger than me
As far as happy, yo it's like a trigger to me
Dealin with crab rappers, and groupie broads
Record execs, at times it do be hard
But to choose words, and be heard across waters
Doin something you like to support daughters
Keepin your guys who collectin court orders
Conveyin messages that the ancestors brought us
Thought of things to say to become the end thing for the day
Somehow, that didn't seem the way for me to make it
Music is a gift that is sacred
I hope you didn't use it hopin you could grow to it
Whether servin or a surgeon, you gon go through it
Can't imagine goin through it, without soul music
It's like Donnie ?half? helped me see Lonnie's ?fath?
On my behalf, let's take whole steps to a ?ho tep?
And show depth, as we make people nod
Find heaven in this music and God
Find heaven in this music and God
Find heaven in this music and God
GET OVER YOURSELVES WHITE CONSERVATIVES WHO FEEL THE WAY HANNITY AND ROVE FEEL. WE ARE BIGGER THAN THUGS AND VIOLENCE. WE ARE MORE THAN STREETS AND IGNORANCE. CHOOSE TO IGNORE THAT IS CHOOSING TO IGNORE US.